haih~~~

i also dunno how to describe my feeling....i used to keep quite when i get scolded....maybe this is mainly because i hate argument...but i do feel sad after that......

i'm thinking the words to fight back during the moment ppl scolding me...
however, i still insist to keep my mouth shut......
if i really wanna fight back, i know the 1st thing i will do is cry.....
then become hard to talk n keep quite n crying again.....
i also cannot tahan myself....haih~~~~

she is the person i admired the most since i was young.....
i nv reject anything she ask me to do when i was young....
i love to shopping with her even i know sure i will get scold...(cos i'm always stupid)
i can put my friend at last minutes time because she wanna go out with me...

i also dunno since when...
the number of argument between us keep on increase....
i feel tired to talk to her....
i don like to go home because of her.....
i will reject whatever she request....

i accept 1 thing now.....she hate me.....hate my personality.....
what can i do?????
haih......i cannot sleep....